Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Where has the month gone?

My brain has apparently been lost out in the universe somewhere. I've just been muddling along in life, keeping busy, yet accomplishing nothing. If something could have possibly gone wrong, it seems to have in the last a few weeks. I'm looking forward to life settling down and being quiet for a little while. We'll see how long that lasts... *sigh* At the moment, I feel like the entire balance of my world is hanging by a string, which isn't exactly pleasant.

I pulled all my ads a few weeks ago, but realize I haven't posted any of the interesting responses. I found that my A to Z list didn't garner nearly the interesting responses than my previous list, however there were some quality ones. However, I didn't really respond to many of them. *blush* I just think with everything going on & feeling meh about most of them, I just wasn't in it.

So, updates, I guess...

The guy that blew me away, is a total flake. Whatever. His loss. NEXT!

Actually, it was a good lesson learned for me and allowed me to deal with some thoughts & expectations that I had drug around with me for years. So I'm very glad he replied to me. (Long story & am not getting into it.)

I still have a "stable" I suppose. But I'm *gasp* seriously thinking about giving it up. And yes, there is a reason for it. ;)

Now, the stable...

1. Definite front runner. In fact, he's the only one I've spent face-to-face time, out of all of these. He's awesome, to say the least. There seems to be some serious chemistry there, on much more than a physical level. If I'm perfectly honest, I get butterflies when I think of him & that's a first for me. No idea where things are heading & I'm trying not to over think things, but simply enjoy it as it comes. However, I would have no hesitation in ditching the rest of my stable if he asked me to. He first contacted me a little more than 3 weeks ago. We first met two weeks ago. And now I'm not going to see him for almost a week & I'm actually sad about that. Weird. I never care about things like that. I'm finally beginning to understand why some of my friends like to spend a lot of time with their guys. Until now, it's been a foreign concept to me. Perhaps I'm smitten. ;) He's actually the only person that I connected with from my A to Z list.

2, 3 & 4 - Two of them are local. One is on the West coast. They are all great guys. The two local guys have both asked me to go have a drink or coffee soon. *lol* It's only taken them since the beginning of February to get to this point. ;) Now, to be fair, one is incredibly shy (& I'm somewhat amazed he finally broached the subject, because he had pretty much told me it would be up to me) and the other has just moved here & has been settling into his new place, new job & new city. I would still love to meet them, as I think they could be good friends, BUT how to handle that?! Funny thing is that they both work in fields, where paths could possible cross with my first guy. There goes my little crazy, intertwined world.

Then I've made a good friend along the way. He's incredibly sweet, but as I told him, I don't make a good rebound girl. ;) Who knows what the future will bring...

So, that's it for now. I have a lot more to say, but a lack of time to do it. I will make a point to get back here sooner than later, however.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Bitch enough & the universe will listen...

At least it is, for now! *lol*

I heard from the boy I wanted to hear from. Granted not a phone call or anything, but a quick note. So, I AM being thought of, which is what matters most. For now. We'll see how it goes.

Also, I got some attention through the evening. ;) First from A in the early evening & then K later on. A few emails waiting for me this morning when I got up & now J is back to texting me. (NOT, THE J! Different one.) I cannot complain at the moment.

So for now, I'm packing a bit. Flirting a bit. Packing a bit more. It's good to be busy! Although, I think I need to get out of the house for a while... Even if just to run through a drive-thru to grab a coffee. It is Roll Up The Rim time you know. I need to win me a prize.

I've been listening to one of my favorite songs lately. Here it is! (Cat - note, it's a different video than the one I shared with you.) This is my Ben boy. *swoon* And this version is much more in line with his public persona, than the more serious version of the video...

Friday, February 29, 2008

WTF?!

So, one minute it's guys everywhere! Then the next day it's abysmally quiet. *sigh* I swear there is no happy medium in life. Feast or famine.

Although, I really shouldn't complain too loudly. There's a gentleman that's been paying me more than my fair share of attention today. He seems very sweet, intelligent, interesting. However, he's out for the evening and here I am needing entertaining. Here's hoping that someone else can pick up the slack. ;) And, yes, I have someone in mind... I quite like him, so I'm hoping he picks up the ball he's dropped this week, but I suppose we'll have to see what happens there. A dear friend sent me a bit of a "smarten up" message with regards to this bloke & he's right. BUT, I'm still a girl. One that likes attention - no matter how much I say otherwise.

Reality is, that even though it's Friday night, I really need to get some work done, with regards to packing, as well as my school work. Perhaps the universe is interfering today, attempting to force my hand to do the things that I've been avoiding, when I really don't have the time or resources available to be playing this avoidance game.

So, operation list A to Z blows. Replies have been few and far between. The vast majority have been weak. I still don't know if it's a case of poor timing, execution or concept. Not sure whether to work on plotting my next move, or if I should just pack it in until after my move and see what pans out with what I already have going on.

I got a nice little phishing/spam response did. I'll be sure to post it later. This time, I'm not taking out the Yahoo address or phone number. Bugger can be spammed for all I care. Ha!

Happy Friday!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Wowza!

My potential dating life has taken a freakish turn. In a very, very good way. My friends have pretty much all been apprised of the situation. As for the rest of you, you'll just have to remain in the dark for the moment. If you know how to track me down, please feel free to do so and I might fill you in. Or I may opt to be a huge tease. ;) A dear friend summed it up, as the universe is being a 3 year old, having a tantrum, trying to get my attention.

That said, nothing has changed. I haven't gone on a date in this past week, or anything.

In fact, I went ahead and posted a new list. I revised the A to Z list I had posted a while ago. First, I tried Kijiji. The responses were abysmal, to say the least. Although, there is one gentleman that very much has my attention. I've sinced removed it from there and put it up on Craigslist instead. I'm just not getting the reponses, like I had with my previous list. I think it's a combination of poor timing and a list that's not quite as interesting, perhaps.

I do have a nice little "stable" of guys right now, so I'm really not sure why I'm pursuing more. *lol* Perhaps it's because I already know that several of these guys are much better suited to be friends than something romantic? And yes, that's perfectly fine with me. New, interesting friends are more than welcome in my life. Seems like my local group has slowly erroded over time, with many having had moved away. Some are just weird after my split. It's hard to keep my attention, so there's obviously something there, if I'm still happy to be chatting after several weeks, without even meeting.

Sorry that I have no earth shattering updates. Someday I will, I'm sure. In the meantime, here's the latest list...

A - Active. I love to be doing something.
B - Brain. I have one and enjoy using it.
C - Comfortable with who I am.
D - Dreamer. I like to think anything is possible.
E - Energetic, among other things.
F - Friendships. They are important to me & the foundation for many great things.
G - Girl. There's no doubt that I am one.
H - Hockey. Could it be anything, but?!
I - Ice cream! A favorite treat.
J - July. My favorite month!
K - Kites. I love flying them!
L - Laugh. I do it a lot & so should you.
M - Mountains. Love being out in them!
N - Nature. I appreciate & enjoy it.
O - Optimistic. I like to see the bright side of things.
P - Punctual. Always! If I'm late, something is wrong.
Q - Questions. I like to question things, rather than just accept what I'm told.
R - Riesling. Please grab me a glass while you're up.
S - Six feet. That's how tall I am.
T - Thoughtful. I like to treat people well.
U - University. I've just gone back.
V - Vivacious. Get to know me & you'll find out quickly.
W - Wham! A lustful throwback to my young teen years.
X - Xanthous. Apparently means, yellow or red-haired. Works for me!
Y - Youthful, in looks & spirit. (I'm 34, if you were wondering.)
Z - Zoo. Where I spend a lot of time.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Where have all the good people gone?

I'm going to try and sit down this evening, with a glass of wine in hand & post a few more "winner" notes. Haha!

Things are stupid busy in the life of this dirty girl. I'm getting ready to move in a few weeks. Crazy situation, but it's a good thing. However, this means big changes and a ton of work. Anyone want to come help? I promise to fill you with good food & drink in exchange. And lots of laughs.

So, I'm getting frustrated. Seems like men are either looking for a quick lay and then want to ride off into the sunset. Or else they want to propose marriage and have an immediate "happily ever after." Gah! Where are those in between guys? Because honestly, I'm not looking for something super serious right now. I'd rather have Mr. Right Now - who I can hang out with, have a lot of fun and laughs, fantastic sex, but without all the heavy stuff. Is that really too much to ask? I don't want to see someone every day. For one, I don't really have the time, but even if I did, I want something more casual. FWB, if you will. ;)

Also, I'm starting to freak myself out a bit when it comes to that idea of "happily ever after", because admittedly we all want that at some point. I just am not sure I am capable of such a thing. Sure, there are people I have loved, just not LOVE loved. I may have thought it was LOVE for a brief period, but it would quickly become evident that it wasn't really a case like that. I'm sure it's all me, as I have a habit of pushing people away when they get too close. Fairly normal for someone that's experienced a lot of loss in their lives. It's just starting to worry me, that's all.

Anyhow. I have busy work to do. I also have an appointment to get my brows all prettified. Yay!

Monday, February 18, 2008

The good, the bad & the ugly...

Ok, I'm going to skip the good. Some are very sweet, but let's be honest. You're not here wanting to read those. ;) But here are some gems that I have gotten. I have a very special one that is worthy of its own entry, which will come later.

Hello I am a interest in a loving person

Call me and we should meet up *******

K


Thanks buddy! Let me get right on calling a complete stranger, that I know nothing about! At least spend sometime pleading your case so that I will consider picking up the phone. NEXT!



Sorry to say I am not what you are looking for (married & older), but I thought I would let you know that I loved your list. I think it is absolutely poetic, creative and wonderfully descriptive.
You should request a similar list from anyone who is interested. It would be no small challenge. I wish you well with your quest.
R.

Thanks, Dad. I appreciate that you feel the need to tell me what my requirements should be.


I can do you today if you are white


Damn! I could have done you today, if you weren't such an asshole. NEXT!


Hi, I have a friend who would love to meet you, if interested drop me a note to **************
and I will forward his profile to you, thanks
Brent

Hey, Brent! If your "friend" wants to meet me, why don't you have your "friend" get in touch with me. But if by "friend" you mean the other person that shares your brain, well, I think I'd rather not. I prefer people that can speak & type for themselves.


hi, hw r u doin...saw ur post and thght I can be a good friend of u....am male 26 and here in calgary on business trip for 6 months...if interested , do reply...v can then exchange mails to knw each other better before meeting :)
luv

Thanks buddy! Glad to know you took the time to read my ad. *rolleyes* NEXT!


YOU SOUND VERY NEAT
I WOULD BE VERY INTERESTED IN HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH YOU
YOU ARE A CREATIVE ONE IT WOULD SEEM.

YOU CAN WRITE ME AT THIS EMAIL

MJ

WOW! I CAN'T QUITE HEAR YOU. Maybe if you didn't "yell" and actually captured my interest, or at least put in some effort, I might have emailed you back. Also, I really don't care for the word "neat" all that much. Yes, I'm being a snot, but that's my prerogative.

i like ur style i love to meet u to see u inperson

Well, if you had read, you'd know I don't really like your style. And how about you *gasp* attempt a conversation, before plotting our first meeting.


Seriously people, is it honestly that difficult to get?! I didn't think so, but for some people it sure seems to be the case.

Hello, hello!

Sorry to drop off the face of the earth! I've been ridiculously sick the last two weeks. So lame. However, I've decided this morning that I'm feeling much more undead, so hopefully it means the end of this plague is near (or so I pray - seeing that I'm not religious, if I'm praying, that must mean I'm in desperate need of help.)

So, the response to my Craigslist ad has been overwhelming. There are some decent people in the world. And yes, definitely some major knobs as well. Fortunately most that replied were alright. I'll post a few of the "gems" for you when I get a chance to.

While I've had a great time, I'm starting to realize that it takes a lot to hold my attention & that I get bored far more easily than I care to admit. *sigh* I've always thought of myself as low-maintenance. And really, I am. Right?! I don't need lavish things. Sure, I like my attention, but I'm not the type of girl that needs to be with someone 24/7. In all honesty, guys seem to want more time together than I need, which I realize is an odd thing, but it's who I am. However, I'm just not into "vanilla" much. I need someone that's going to make me laugh & think. I like to have those complicated & messy conversations once in a while. I don't get offended easily, so maybe that's why I enjoy them. But all these emails seem to go back and forth and end up being really dull after a while. Is it them? Is it me? I don't know. Probably a combination of both.

I've had a riot chatting with someone lately. When I see that a guy has called, or messaged me & I don't have that sense of dread that I have to talk to them, that's a good sign. So, we decided to go out last night. It was great. We sat & talked. Laughed a bit. However, I don't think he's into me, if I'm being perfectly honest. I still think he's pretty awesome, but I'm not about to get my knickers in a twist, if you know what I mean. ;)

Anyhow, this dirty girl's castle is crumbling, so I better go pay some serious attention to it. Sick & slacking does not make for pleasant surroundings. I really need to get working on finding myself a hot houseboy. Plus, I have my two classes I want to fast track through, which means hardcore reading & studying needs to be done. Good times.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

My little goldmine?

I posted my list from yesterday on Craigslist. A couple of girlfriends posted theirs on their local CL as well. To be perfectly honest, I went into it hoping for the best, but fully expecting the worst. Surely, if the freaks come out in droves on a dating site, somewhere like CL would be even worse...

Well, I've been plesantly surprised! I have been exchanging emails with a few guys that seem to have a lot of potential (even if it's only as someone to hang out with.) There's only been one that's made me want to scream out NEXT! (If you can't even spell drugs right - it's definitely not "drogs" - then there might be an issue.) Best of all, many have replied with lists of their own.

I'll keep you all posted!

Seems I have caught a cold. It's kicking my ass. Actually, it's more kicked me in the head & causing me to wonder what bus ran me over. Sucks to be me... (Ok, not really, but I still feel like garbage.)

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Me, in list form.

I stole this idea from my sassy friend's brother. ;) Hopefully he doesn't mind.

I am not perfect.
I enjoy debating.
I hate arguing.
I am tall.
I am taller than that.
I listen to music all day long.
I am not into smokers.
I know the difference between there, their, and they're.
I am not religious.
I am an only girl, but not an only child.
I wanted to be a princess, but my mother wouldn't let me.
I rode a dirt bike instead.
I love to flirt.
I especially love to flirt via text messages.
I hate "net lingo" & text shorthand.
I am a student.
I am not looking to just hook up.
I love to dance in the rain.
I like the idea of relaxing, but I hate to sit still.
I laugh. A lot.
I often laugh spontaneously & at inappropriate times.
I suck at telling jokes.
I am bilingual. At least on paper. In practice, not so much.
I blush easily.
I am mischievous. In a good way.
I love white wine.
I should drink more red.
I know how to party like a rockstar.
I don't do it often.
I am an excellent friend.
I appreciate politeness & good manners.
I like to walk when it's a reasonable option.
I hate driving during rush hour.
I can keep a secret.
I love coffee.
I dance around the house in my pyjamas daily.
I have great eyebrows.
I think personality and sense of humor are more important than looks, but physical chemistry is a must.
I am 34.
I don't act it, nor do I look it. Or so I'm told.
I'll gladly watch hockey & basketball. Baseball, not so much. Football can go either way.
I am strong.
I can hold my own in most things.
I am sweet, without being saccharine.
I stay up late.
I get up early.
I sing while I drive & drum on my steering wheel.
I don't care if you laugh at me for doing that.

Stand by...

Too many late nights have finally caught up with me. I woke up this morning with an inkling that I was coming down with a cold. 6 hours later I'm miserable. Add in some absolutely messed up people & my day is just lovely. *lol* The internet world is definitely filled with idiots - my wonderful friends being the exception. Right now, I feel like a boxer warming up for a match, bouncing around in the corner and raring to go. BRING IT! Seriously.

So, I gave my contact information to a guy last week, hoping that he'd actually use it. Has he? Nope. Argh. I am still hoping he does, but I'm not the kind of girl to sit around waiting for a call or email. If he doesn't, well, it's his loss. I'm beyond awesome. ;) No ego here...

Anyhow, this guy threw me for a loop yesterday, unexpectedly. I had some appointments down in the core yesterday, which always makes me happy! So, I'm traveling down 17th, a fabulous shopping & entertainment district, minding my own business. All of a sudden I look up & THERE he is! I had to do a double take, but yes, it was definitely him. Weird. Guess I know where he works now. ;) I was tempted to tap on the glass & ask if he was going to call me or not. Instead, I simply gave my head a shake and kept on going.

For those that don't "know" me, suburbia is my current home. In a lot of ways, I love it. Out of the general busyness of the city/traffic, but with a lot of services close at hand. Where I am is a fabulous lifestyle area. That said, I'm a city girl. I grew up in the inner city and in many ways I miss it. The vibrancy. Being able to walk pretty much anywhere. The arts, pubs, clubs, restaurants, shopping, parks, etc. are all great. Compared to most major cities, it's very clean. Many people are scared of being downtown after dark, but I never have been. Now & then I toy with the idea of moving back, or at least closer to the core. Now isn't the time to do so - but I still can dream, right?! I've been thinking about this a lot today.

In other news, our brilliant Premier has called an election, which will take place in just under a month. He's so on the ball, that his website is still under construction. Nice. If that's the kind of brain you need to be in politics these days, perhaps I should rethink my career path.

Alright. It's time to go scrounge in my cupboards for cold meds. I refuse to go to the store today, for fear of removing someone's head. Just one of those days. But at least I am smart enough to realize it. Also, I misplaced my open can of Coke Zero. If you see it, let me know.

Monday, February 4, 2008

ABC's

Do you have days where you're completely uninspired? Well, today is one of those days for me. I started on an entry earlier today, that I had hoped to have finished by this evening. My day got away from me, dealt with some crap and now am pretty meh.

So, I asked my lovely friend Laurie for an idea for a list for today, so here it is...

ABC's of me!

A - Angel. Haha! Seriously though, it's one half of a well known nickname of mine.
B - Ben Folds *swoon*
C - Cooking. I'm pretty damn good at it.
D - Devilish. Can you guess what that might go with? ;)
E - Energetic, among other things.
F - Flirtationships. So much fun!
G - Gentle. Really, I am. *lol*
H - Hockey. Could it be anything, but?!
I - Independent.
J - Jovial.
K - Kites. I love flying them!
L - Legs. They are exceptionally long.
M - Mischievous. You should find out why!
N - Naughty. And it comes right after mischievous. Bwahahaha.
O - Optimistic.
P - Punctual. Always! If I'm late, something is wrong.
Q - Quiet. I do enjoy a quiet evening, now & then.
R - Riesling. Please grab me a glass while you're up.
S - Slurpees. A guilty pleasure.
T - Text Messaging. Something that I enjoy far too much.
U - University. I've just gone back.
V - Vivacious. Get to know me & you'll find out quickly.
W - Wham! A lustful throwback to my young teen years.
X - Xanthous. Apparently means, yellow or red-haired. Works for me!
Y - Yarn. I'm teaching myself to knit.
Z - Zoo. Where I spend a lot of time.

Feel free to add your own!

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Pass it on!

A day shouldn't be starting at 6am, when you don't go to sleep until 3am. Sometimes I can't help but question my own sanity, which begs the question, how on earth is it that my friends haven't had me committed yet?

That said, it was absolutely worth it & I would do it again in a second. (And likely will. ;)) I saw one of my best friends, for the first time in 10 years! Holy crap. I'm still very fuzzy on how we lost touch for that long, especially with living in the same city. I run into people I don't want to run into all the time, but rarely into people I would LOVE to see. It was wonderful to catch up and it was as if there weren't all those missing years. Awesome! Anyhow, thanks for dragging me out J & A. So much fun! Who would have thought this party girl could go out to a club, have fun, without getting completely ripped.

My wake-up call came far too early, in the form of "Mom, I have to peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" Oy vey! We had a good morning and eventually got out of the house and braved the grocery on Superbowl Sunday. Bad planning on my part. Somehow I almost doubled my weekly grocery bill. I cannot figure that out, but we will be having some great meals this week at least.

After dealing with that fiasco, Starbucks was calling my name. I swear I could hear rumblings of "Over here! You know you really need a Double Tall Skinny Mocha." I stopped for a split second & realized, why yes, I definitely do! So begins the turning point in my day...

Once in a while, you hear a random act of kindness (ROAK) story on the news. You know the ones that make you pause, then wonder why they never happen to you. *lol* I know my friend B makes a point of paying tolls for others at times, which is awesome! Just hearing her tell the story of it, has been heart-warming to read. Having no toll roads here, that option is out. As for other things, I'm always terrified of getting myself into a situation that I really can't afford, so I've never done anything...

Well, I ordered my much needed Starbucks drink. I pull up to the window & the girl informs me that the person in front of me has paid for my drink. WOW! I paused for a second and pondered what I should do. The vehicle behind me had several adults in it & being a single mom/university student, I was scared to ask how much their order was, but I did. Since their order was only $2 more than mine would have been, I happily passed it on. It felt incredible to do that & my spirit soared for simply shelling out $6 for someone else. (Note: Had their order had been huge, I still would have at least paid for some of their order.)

So, next time you're somewhere that you can offer up a ROAK, definitely do it! Not only will you have a chance at making someone else's day, you'll also make your own.

I feel fabulous!

I gave someone my email & number the other day. I'm really hoping he calls. So, here's hoping...

Friday, February 1, 2008

Want to be my Valentine?

Alright, the odds of my having an actual Valentine this year are about... NIL! And I'm that's ok. However, here's my wishlist anyhow. If you don't ask, you don't get, right?! ;) But hey, if someone wants to buy me something, I'm cool with that.

This was inspired by an email from my favorite brewery, who suggested a couple of 6 packs for Valentine's Day. Check to see if they made my list...

10. A little box of Callebaut chocolate. Enough to have a taste, but not enough to derail my efforts.

9. Love Actually dvd.

8. A foot & back massage. No wussing out after two minutes, complaining your hands hurt.

7. A case or two of Wraspberry Ale or Velvet Fog.

6. A bottle of Michael Kors

5. Picnic in the house - be creative!

4. Tiffany 1837 tag pendant - A girl should be allowed to ask for at least one pricey thing. ;)

3. A walk in the mountains.

2. A yummy house boy for the day!

1. A road trip & concert tickets to see my favorite performer.

Happy Friday! Complete with an early Valentine from your favorite dirty girl. ;)

Alright. I listen to music a lot. Probably more than I should, but I can think of worse things to be addicted to. Yesterday, a song popped up on my iPod that I hadn't heard in more than a year. I stopped listening to it, because it had become difficult to make through, without causing tears. Now, it brings a little smirk to my face and makes me laugh. It's a song that actually sings to me.

I know that a few of my readers & friends, have either walked my path already, or are (sadly/happily - whichever the case may be) following behind me. This is for you! I hope you enjoy it. I have such a girl crush on Kate Nash & she could easily be my lebanese lover. (Yes, the lebanese thing is a joke! Not meant to offend any Lebanese people - just a funny that came about within my wonderful "group.")

Foundations - Kate Nash

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Seriously? (1.30.08)

OMG! Do I have something stuck to me? Anything that would be encouraging the freak fest that I have seemed to have stumbled upon?

Being the sweetheart that I truly am, I'm being kind enough to remove his name, his child's name & his messenger information (although, I was truly tempted to leave it in, for your personal amusement.)

How are you doing, i m f**** a*****....i m 55 years old ...i live in pharr, texas, i m divorced with a son named *** 10 years old.....i m a civil engineer in which i own my construction company, i saw your profile and seeing that you have a nice picture........i will like to meet u and have a nice chat with you.....i m .. in yahoo messanger and.....i will be glad if you can add me to your buddy list so we can have a nice time together..i m also new to myspace..here is ***************** i will be glad if you can also reply me with your own email i m gonna add you to my buddylist........hope to hear from you fast... Regards
f a*****

Anyone care to play spot the problems?

  1. He's 55. I'm more than 20 years younger.
  2. I love ellipses, but this is just a little too much. Perhaps the inconsistent number of them. I can over look the 3 rule, if you're at least consistent.
  3. Grammar, spelling, punctuation. *sigh* Seriously though, I can overlook a lot of that, *if* I like you.
  4. u? "You" is used regularly, so why the errant "u"? I cannot stand net speak. I'll suck it up from my younger cousins, who don't know better, but from someone 20+ years my senior, no way!
  5. The only photo is so pixelated, that I have no clue what he looks like. I'd rather no photo than that.
Let's not even get into the fact that he's listed as a 34% match for me & 27% enemy. Those numbers are a little too close together for us to have much common ground.

Your turn! Pick away...

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Seriously? (1.29.08)

Ok, I'm not one to mock people. Well, not unless it's well deserved. Or mocking myself - which I'm very skilled at. *lol* I'm honestly not a mean person. Right?! (Praying my friends agree with me. ;))

I got an email notification about a pending message. Hopeful that it was from a certain someone, I logged in to peek. It wasn't. Boo. Whatever. I'm not going to get my panties in a twist.

So, I check out this profile and I was stunned. I'll get to his photo in a minute - there's no spoiler code here, that I know of. Most of you are going to close this window in horror once you see it.

Here's the thing. Am I model beautiful? Nope. Sorry. However I think I'm pretty darn cute. And what I might be lacking, I make up for in spades when it comes to my sparkling personality, if you haven't already noticed. ;)

Anyhow, this guy is apparently 3 years older than me. Oh boy! He looks at least 20 years older than me. He's a lot shorter than me. He also smokes. Gross! Guys like this is what makes me want to throw in the towel...

*SIGH*




Monday, January 28, 2008

Cute Boy, oh cute boy! (Saga of the hair dye)

So, I had quite the whirlwind flirtationship last year. We actually never did meet face-to-face & right about now, I can sit back and be more than thankful for that.

There were a few times where we came close, but the first time he chickened out. Second time, I started getting a weird vibe and cancelled at the last minute - very much unlike me. (I'm a stickler for keeping plans and being punctual. In fact, I'm completely OCD about being punctual, which fortunately tends to work in my favor. ;)) I have learned in recent years to trust my gut instinct about things. I started to doubt them, but fortunately they smacked me right in the face & pretty much screamed - DON'T. DO. IT. So I didn't. CB had a complete and utter flip out a few days later and that was the end of that.

You know, I don't even know where to begin with this...

He was pretty close to what I wanted in a guy. Tall, intelligent, witty, sweet, sensitive, caring, educated. Did I mention hot? The kind of man I could take home to my picky parents & they would have been over the moon.

What I didn't see at first, was that psychotic was also lurking below the surface. He flipped out on me a few times with regards to my personal beliefs (abortion, gay rights/marriage, etc.) You have to understand, I'm more socially liberal than not. However, if someone can at least respect my beliefs, even if they differ from theirs, I can live with that. A line was crossed when I was called a "baby murderer" because I am pro-choice (even though he knew, that in terms of for myself, I'm pro-life.) I didn't speak to him for a few days after that.

He ended up apologizing and sending some super sucky text message (which I didn't save.) I think he had a good sense of who I was & wormed his way back in by sending the following:

I like you. I have so much enjoyed the freedom of unrestrained talking. To be me. With you. It's been so cool. Anyone I've met recently, I have told first thing and very specifically that I am not interested in a romantic relationship. Curiously, I have not told this to you. I don't understand that...

Pitter patter. Sappy. Just the kind of things girls like to hear. So being smrt, instead of smart, I kept talking to him. The flirting & attention was wonderful. I can admit that I'm now missing that. *lol*

I won't get into the nitty gritty of things falling apart between us. It was just weird, but a weight was lifted off my shoulders when we agreed to go our separate ways.

Shame though, because he was pretty damn cute. Wasn't he, girls?! ;)

Lesson learned: Run far, far away from straight guys who color & highlight their hair.

First 50 songs.

Alright. I've decided to throw out the odd list, as a "get to know me" exercise. This is the first 50 songs that came up on my iPod just now, when I hit shuffle. There's a lot of music that I enjoy, that isn't represented here. I won't be surprised in the least if a lot of you are left scratching your heads. *lol*

  1. Still Fighting It - Ben Folds
  2. Mass Romantic - New Pornographers
  3. Broken Promise Ring - The Ataris
  4. The Bitch Is Back - Elton John
  5. Feels Just Like It Should - Jamiroquai
  6. Ripchord - Rilo Kiley
  7. This Is Our Emergency - Pretty Girls Make Graves
  8. Thorn In My Side - Eurythmics
  9. Wrong Way - Sublime
  10. I Can't Say - The Trews
  11. Whisky & Gin - Dance Hall Crashers
  12. Corduroy Boy - The Dears
  13. 16 By 32 - The Decemberists
  14. Song For The Dumped - Ben Folds Five
  15. Common People - Pulp
  16. Dirty Mouth - Hot Hot Heat
  17. Close I've Come - Ben Lee
  18. Is It Any Wonder? - Keane
  19. Rockin' The Suburbs - Ben Folds
  20. Heroes - David Bowie
  21. Yellow Submarine - The Beatles
  22. Andy, You're A Star - The Killers
  23. Hump You - Chixdiggit
  24. Don't Lose The Faith - The Dears
  25. Fast Love - George Michael
  26. Eden - Field Day
  27. Pretty Girls - Neko Case
  28. Next To You - Dance Hall Crashers
  29. 1999 - Prince
  30. Fun Loving Nun - Of Montreal
  31. All For You - The Anti-Q's
  32. Kill The Director - The Wombats
  33. Helluva Way To Die - Wagbeard
  34. Me Me Me Me - Louis XIV
  35. The Last Polka - Ben Folds Five
  36. Conquest - The White Stripes
  37. Your Daddy Don't Know - New Pornographers
  38. Little Bird - Annie Lennox
  39. Just Can't Get Enough - Depeche Mode
  40. I Need You Back - Ben Kweller
  41. What's A Girl To Do - Bat For Lashes
  42. Everything's Just Wonderful - Lily Allen
  43. Don't Know Why - Norah Jones
  44. Strawberry Bounce - Janet Jackson
  45. She Sells Sanctuary - The Cult
  46. Best Imitation Of Myself - Ben Folds
  47. Overrated - Pilate
  48. Blue Orchid - The White Stripes
  49. Friday I'm In Love - The Cure
  50. You Owe Me An IOU - Hot Hot Heat

Happy Monday!

It's cold here. And by cold, I mean c-c-c-c-c-c-cold. It's in the -50F range, when you factor in windchill. Needless to say, I am not leaving the house today. In fact, it took until noon to get out of my workout clothes & into the shower. What's with extreme weather causing utter laziness?

Weekend was alright. Busy. A few drinks. People, keep me away from dating sites when I've consumed more than one drink. All I seem to end up doing is getting myself into trouble. Oops. I do that well enough without alcohol involved.

Cute boys at the mall this weekend. And by boys, I mean barely legal kind of boys. It was fun. I got a lot of stares. I think the guys were trying to figure out how tall I was (6'3.5" in the shoes I was sporting) & the ladies were trying to see if I was truly that tall, or simply wearing incredibly high heels. *lol* While, yes, I was wearing a pair of boots with a heel, it's an incredibly modest height compared to what most wear. However, all the tall guys seemed to be in hiding, because there was only one or two that I passed that were taller than me. *sigh*

A few messages over the weekend. One guy I can already tell I'm not interested in after two incredibly dull exchanges. Another was incredibly cute. BUT. He's only looking to cheat on his wife. That does not fly with me. I was polite and thanked him for his lovely compliments (I'm a girl - I like being told I'm absolutely gorgeous. *giggle*), but that we were looking for very different things. Granted, I'm up for a casual relationship, but I draw the line when it comes to cheating. There's another that has piqued my interest. We'll see how that goes...

I've settled on Kismet for a name for now. Someone pointed out that just using a different female name, could bother some guys. The princess names I was coming up with, didn't suit me. So, I came up with Serendipity & Kismet. Kismet won out. For now. I'm still taking suggestions.

xx

Saturday, January 26, 2008

About the boy...

So, it's no secret that I'm looking for *someone* right now. A special someone would be lovely, but honestly, I'm happy to just be out & having some fun right now. I don't even need a relationship, but a flirtationship would be nice.

Obviously local is a bonus (but some of you don't know where I am. Bwahahahahaha!) I have done & am willing to do the long distance thing for a while, if necessary. I have no plans to stay where I am living forever. I've been here most of my life thus far & to be honest, I'm getting bored, as much as I love my home. I'm a water person and I am very much drawn to the coast. Most of my good friends know this. It's in my blood and it's in my heart. I'll blame too many summers visiting family abroad, with regular trips to the ocean during those visits. While I may be landlocked, I still spend most of the summer at the lake. If the weather is decent, I'm there.



TALL! 6'3"+ is preferred. 6'+ is doable. I'm tired of shorter guys. With few exceptions. ;)

Active. Not entirely a physical trait I suppose, but this is important to me. I've been working hard at getting back to an active & fit person (my friends can back me up) and I don't need another sedentary partner.

Intelligent. Honestly, I don't care what he does for a living, as long as he's passionate about it, or is working towards achieving that. But, I need someone I can have intelligent conversations with. I'm much rather end up with a "geek", than brain challenged eye candy. That's not to say I don't appreciate eye candy, but that can only keep me captive for so long.

Humor. A great sense of humor is worth more than almost anything to me. I love to laugh. It makes me feel young & giddy. Better than laughing on my own, is having someone to share a laugh with. Bonus points if you enjoy BritComs.

Music. It's always been a major part of my life. Even just a great appreciation would be awesome. I don't have to have someone that knows how to play. However, if he can sing, well, that's going to make me weak in the knees. *lol*

Sanity. I won't even get into it. But it's a must. Or at least relatively close to being sane. ;)

Ambition & Direction. I don't care what he does, as long as he loves what he does, or is actively working towards it.

Children. I have them. And I'm a hypocrite here. I would prefer to be with someone that doesn't already have their own children. But it's just a preference, not a dealbreaker. I have a lot of reasons for this, but it's something that can be discussed when it's pertinent.

Religion. I'm spiritual, but not overly religious. As long as he respects me, I'll respect him. I enjoy learning about different faiths, so as long as it's not an overpowering situation.

Honesty. Respect. Integrity. You know the drill...

I like to drink wine. So, if he frowns on the idea of drinking, that just won't do.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Dorkus Maximus

I may be a little quiet this weekend. Lots going on. Unfortunately no dates for now. I recently ditched all the guys I was chatting with. Total bores. One exception. He's sweet, but lives the other side of the world, so it's strictly a platonic buddy situation.

Finally got the nerve to log into my POF account this evening. I didn't email that chick back. *shuffle* I just don't know what to say, or whether I should bother or not.

Being an idiot, I uploaded the wrong photo of myself yesterday. No wonder I had no emails waiting. I am such a dork. One would think I would have taken the time to have checked that, but oh no, not me! I do everything right the first time, you know. ;)

So, I have rectified the situation, adding a few more for good luck. I need to get a full body shot up however. They are all facial shots, with one showing from the boobs up. Hey! At least I got the most important body part in there. Right?!

I can't believe that nobody has posted any kind of character reference for me yet. *sob* Y'all are going to give me a complex.

I need a name...

And I'm stupid enough to let you all come up with one. Post your ideas and I'll start a poll in a few days with my favorite suggestions!

Smooches!
xx

Who am I?

Very good question! I'm probably better off leaving this up to my snarktastic friends, who will keep me real. Otherwise, I'm going to oversell or undersell myself & that just won't do.

  • I'm a child of the 70's. I'm also under 35. ;)
  • Very tall. I cannot stress VERY nearly enough. (Sorry ladies. I don't consider 5'7" tall, at all. *lol*)
  • Two eyes, two ears, a nose, lips, two legs. All that good stuff!
  • I'd say I have a dry sense of humor. I can laugh at just about anything.
  • I make as many typos when sober, as I do when tipsy.
  • Busy. Yes, I'm busy. But not bad "can't fit someone in my schedule" kind of busy.
  • I can tie a cherry stem with my tongue. Don't ask me to do this, unless I'm drunk.
  • I blush easily. Ah, the joys of being fair!
  • A fiery redhead by winter, much more blond in summer. At times my persona changes a bit to reflect that fun fact. And yes, it's natural.
  • I'm an athletic girl. I exercise daily. However, I'm curvy. If you're looking for a malnourished waif - move on!
Hopefully this is where my friends will enter & leave their impressions of me. Don't make me tell you to be nice! Bwahahahaha!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

The joke's on me!

I was going to write about CB (Cute Boy - some of my friends may remember him from before Christmas) this evening, but instead, I decided to set up a profile on Plenty Of Fish. I figured why not, seeing as I'm already on OK Cupid.

So. I was lazy & copied my one profile verbatim. Picked my photo. Completed the quiz. Before I was even done, I had a message & gift waiting. Wow, some people are on the ball. I think I squealed like a little girl getting her first Barbie doll. This was the message:

I thought I would send you a flower to show How I appreciated your profile.. Its so nice to find someone else who is knowing what they want, and wants to be appreciated..


TT

Awwww. Sweet. Then I noticed...






It's from a woman! *lol*

What did I do, you ask? I quickly logged off the site. *blush* Then IM'd three of my girls about it. Crazy.

Please know, I have no issue with it, but I wasn't expecting it, seeing as I signed up & said I was looking for a man!

I feel bad that I didn't respond. I know I should, but I have to figure out how to do so tactfully...

Ah, the adventures in dating!

In the beginning...

It's been a long time since I've been single! I had a lot of fun in my younger years. I drank too much. Stayed out too late. All the good stuff. I was definitely more interested in partying than dating, although I did go out on my fair share of dates & some mini-relationships along the way. I had a few serious relationships as well.

I met my husband when I was 23. I was in a definite rebound situation. I was bored one night. He was there. That was that. There were never fireworks or anything, so don't ask me what I was thinking, because I can't figure that out myself. I found myself "stuck" & stupid. Many of my friends warned me (& then walked away, because they didn't want to see me self-destruct.)

Fast forward to now. 11.5 years later, I'm divorcing. We have all those pesky details to resolve and papers to sign. Chances of reconciliation are less than nil. Praise the heavens! I can think of a million better things to do than to remain in that situation. Over the last many months, I have sought counseling, been taking care of myself & packing away my baggage. I've also spent some time flirting with guys. ;) That's been a lot of fun. I missed it!

Through all of this, I have definitely figured out what I don't want, as well as my must haves. A pretty lengthy wish list accompanies those as well, but those are more negotiation points than sticking points.

Do you have any idea at how lacking the world is of really tall men? This is about the only thing that makes me curse my height. *sigh*

I'm also realizing that I honestly have never been in that big, romantic love. What's wrong with me? Lust. Yes! Love. Yeah, not so much...