WTF?!

So, one minute it's guys everywhere! Then the next day it's abysmally quiet. *sigh* I swear there is no happy medium in life. Feast or famine.

Although, I really shouldn't complain too loudly. There's a gentleman that's been paying me more than my fair share of attention today. He seems very sweet, intelligent, interesting. However, he's out for the evening and here I am needing entertaining. Here's hoping that someone else can pick up the slack. ;) And, yes, I have someone in mind... I quite like him, so I'm hoping he picks up the ball he's dropped this week, but I suppose we'll have to see what happens there. A dear friend sent me a bit of a "smarten up" message with regards to this bloke & he's right. BUT, I'm still a girl. One that likes attention - no matter how much I say otherwise.

Reality is, that even though it's Friday night, I really need to get some work done, with regards to packing, as well as my school work. Perhaps the universe is interfering today, attempting to force my hand to do the things that I've been avoiding, when I really don't have the time or resources available to be playing this avoidance game.

So, operation list A to Z blows. Replies have been few and far between. The vast majority have been weak. I still don't know if it's a case of poor timing, execution or concept. Not sure whether to work on plotting my next move, or if I should just pack it in until after my move and see what pans out with what I already have going on.

I got a nice little phishing/spam response did. I'll be sure to post it later. This time, I'm not taking out the Yahoo address or phone number. Bugger can be spammed for all I care. Ha!

Happy Friday!

Wowza!

My potential dating life has taken a freakish turn. In a very, very good way. My friends have pretty much all been apprised of the situation. As for the rest of you, you'll just have to remain in the dark for the moment. If you know how to track me down, please feel free to do so and I might fill you in. Or I may opt to be a huge tease. ;) A dear friend summed it up, as the universe is being a 3 year old, having a tantrum, trying to get my attention.

That said, nothing has changed. I haven't gone on a date in this past week, or anything.

In fact, I went ahead and posted a new list. I revised the A to Z list I had posted a while ago. First, I tried Kijiji. The responses were abysmal, to say the least. Although, there is one gentleman that very much has my attention. I've sinced removed it from there and put it up on Craigslist instead. I'm just not getting the reponses, like I had with my previous list. I think it's a combination of poor timing and a list that's not quite as interesting, perhaps.

I do have a nice little "stable" of guys right now, so I'm really not sure why I'm pursuing more. *lol* Perhaps it's because I already know that several of these guys are much better suited to be friends than something romantic? And yes, that's perfectly fine with me. New, interesting friends are more than welcome in my life. Seems like my local group has slowly erroded over time, with many having had moved away. Some are just weird after my split. It's hard to keep my attention, so there's obviously something there, if I'm still happy to be chatting after several weeks, without even meeting.

Sorry that I have no earth shattering updates. Someday I will, I'm sure. In the meantime, here's the latest list...

A - Active. I love to be doing something.
B - Brain. I have one and enjoy using it.
C - Comfortable with who I am.
D - Dreamer. I like to think anything is possible.
E - Energetic, among other things.
F - Friendships. They are important to me & the foundation for many great things.
G - Girl. There's no doubt that I am one.
H - Hockey. Could it be anything, but?!
I - Ice cream! A favorite treat.
J - July. My favorite month!
K - Kites. I love flying them!
L - Laugh. I do it a lot & so should you.
M - Mountains. Love being out in them!
N - Nature. I appreciate & enjoy it.
O - Optimistic. I like to see the bright side of things.
P - Punctual. Always! If I'm late, something is wrong.
Q - Questions. I like to question things, rather than just accept what I'm told.
R - Riesling. Please grab me a glass while you're up.
S - Six feet. That's how tall I am.
T - Thoughtful. I like to treat people well.
U - University. I've just gone back.
V - Vivacious. Get to know me & you'll find out quickly.
W - Wham! A lustful throwback to my young teen years.
X - Xanthous. Apparently means, yellow or red-haired. Works for me!
Y - Youthful, in looks & spirit. (I'm 34, if you were wondering.)
Z - Zoo. Where I spend a lot of time.

Where have all the good people gone?

I'm going to try and sit down this evening, with a glass of wine in hand & post a few more "winner" notes. Haha!

Things are stupid busy in the life of this dirty girl. I'm getting ready to move in a few weeks. Crazy situation, but it's a good thing. However, this means big changes and a ton of work. Anyone want to come help? I promise to fill you with good food & drink in exchange. And lots of laughs.

So, I'm getting frustrated. Seems like men are either looking for a quick lay and then want to ride off into the sunset. Or else they want to propose marriage and have an immediate "happily ever after." Gah! Where are those in between guys? Because honestly, I'm not looking for something super serious right now. I'd rather have Mr. Right Now - who I can hang out with, have a lot of fun and laughs, fantastic sex, but without all the heavy stuff. Is that really too much to ask? I don't want to see someone every day. For one, I don't really have the time, but even if I did, I want something more casual. FWB, if you will. ;)

Also, I'm starting to freak myself out a bit when it comes to that idea of "happily ever after", because admittedly we all want that at some point. I just am not sure I am capable of such a thing. Sure, there are people I have loved, just not LOVE loved. I may have thought it was LOVE for a brief period, but it would quickly become evident that it wasn't really a case like that. I'm sure it's all me, as I have a habit of pushing people away when they get too close. Fairly normal for someone that's experienced a lot of loss in their lives. It's just starting to worry me, that's all.

Anyhow. I have busy work to do. I also have an appointment to get my brows all prettified. Yay!

The good, the bad & the ugly...

Ok, I'm going to skip the good. Some are very sweet, but let's be honest. You're not here wanting to read those. ;) But here are some gems that I have gotten. I have a very special one that is worthy of its own entry, which will come later.

Hello I am a interest in a loving person

Call me and we should meet up *******

K

Thanks buddy! Let me get right on calling a complete stranger, that I know nothing about! At least spend sometime pleading your case so that I will consider picking up the phone. NEXT!

Sorry to say I am not what you are looking for (married & older), but I thought I would let you know that I loved your list. I think it is absolutely poetic, creative and wonderfully descriptive.

You should request a similar list from anyone who is interested. It would be no small challenge. I wish you well with your quest.

R.

Thanks, Dad. I appreciate that you feel the need to tell me what my requirements should be.


I can do you today if you are white

Damn! I could have done you today, if you weren't such an asshole. NEXT!

Hi, I have a friend who would love to meet you, if interested drop me a note to **************

and I will forward his profile to you, thanks

Brent

Hey, Brent! If your "friend" wants to meet me, why don't you have your "friend" get in touch with me. But if by "friend" you mean the other person that shares your brain, well, I think I'd rather not. I prefer people that can speak & type for themselves.

hi, hw r u doin...saw ur post and thght I can be a good friend of u....am male 26 and here in calgary on business trip for 6 months...if interested , do reply...v can then exchange mails to knw each other better before meeting :)
luv

Thanks buddy! Glad to know you took the time to read my ad. *rolleyes* NEXT!

YOU SOUND VERY NEAT
I WOULD BE VERY INTERESTED IN HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH YOU
YOU ARE A CREATIVE ONE IT WOULD SEEM.

YOU CAN WRITE ME AT THIS EMAIL

MJ

WOW! I CAN'T QUITE HEAR YOU. Maybe if you didn't "yell" and actually captured my interest, or at least put in some effort, I might have emailed you back. Also, I really don't care for the word "neat" all that much. Yes, I'm being a snot, but that's my prerogative.

i like ur style i love to meet u to see u inperson

Well, if you had read, you'd know I don't really like your style. And how about you *gasp* attempt a conversation, before plotting our first meeting.

Seriously people, is it honestly that difficult to get?! I didn't think so, but for some people it sure seems to be the case.

Hello, hello!

Sorry to drop off the face of the earth! I've been ridiculously sick the last two weeks. So lame. However, I've decided this morning that I'm feeling much more undead, so hopefully it means the end of this plague is near (or so I pray - seeing that I'm not religious, if I'm praying, that must mean I'm in desperate need of help.)

So, the response to my Craigslist ad has been overwhelming. There are some decent people in the world. And yes, definitely some major knobs as well. Fortunately most that replied were alright. I'll post a few of the "gems" for you when I get a chance to.

While I've had a great time, I'm starting to realize that it takes a lot to hold my attention & that I get bored far more easily than I care to admit. *sigh* I've always thought of myself as low-maintenance. And really, I am. Right?! I don't need lavish things. Sure, I like my attention, but I'm not the type of girl that needs to be with someone 24/7. In all honesty, guys seem to want more time together than I need, which I realize is an odd thing, but it's who I am. However, I'm just not into "vanilla" much. I need someone that's going to make me laugh & think. I like to have those complicated & messy conversations once in a while. I don't get offended easily, so maybe that's why I enjoy them. But all these emails seem to go back and forth and end up being really dull after a while. Is it them? Is it me? I don't know. Probably a combination of both.

I've had a riot chatting with someone lately. When I see that a guy has called, or messaged me & I don't have that sense of dread that I have to talk to them, that's a good sign. So, we decided to go out last night. It was great. We sat & talked. Laughed a bit. However, I don't think he's into me, if I'm being perfectly honest. I still think he's pretty awesome, but I'm not about to get my knickers in a twist, if you know what I mean. ;)

Anyhow, this dirty girl's castle is crumbling, so I better go pay some serious attention to it. Sick & slacking does not make for pleasant surroundings. I really need to get working on finding myself a hot houseboy. Plus, I have my two classes I want to fast track through, which means hardcore reading & studying needs to be done. Good times.

My little goldmine?

I posted my list from yesterday on Craigslist. A couple of girlfriends posted theirs on their local CL as well. To be perfectly honest, I went into it hoping for the best, but fully expecting the worst. Surely, if the freaks come out in droves on a dating site, somewhere like CL would be even worse...

Well, I've been plesantly surprised! I have been exchanging emails with a few guys that seem to have a lot of potential (even if it's only as someone to hang out with.) There's only been one that's made me want to scream out NEXT! (If you can't even spell drugs right - it's definitely not "drogs" - then there might be an issue.) Best of all, many have replied with lists of their own.

I'll keep you all posted!

Seems I have caught a cold. It's kicking my ass. Actually, it's more kicked me in the head & causing me to wonder what bus ran me over. Sucks to be me... (Ok, not really, but I still feel like garbage.)

Me, in list form.

I stole this idea from my sassy friend's brother. ;) Hopefully he doesn't mind.

I am not perfect.
I enjoy debating.
I hate arguing.
I am tall.
I am taller than that.
I listen to music all day long.
I am not into smokers.
I know the difference between there, their, and they're.
I am not religious.
I am an only girl, but not an only child.
I wanted to be a princess, but my mother wouldn't let me.
I rode a dirt bike instead.
I love to flirt.
I especially love to flirt via text messages.
I hate "net lingo" & text shorthand.
I am a student.
I am not looking to just hook up.
I love to dance in the rain.
I like the idea of relaxing, but I hate to sit still.
I laugh. A lot.
I often laugh spontaneously & at inappropriate times.
I suck at telling jokes.
I am bilingual. At least on paper. In practice, not so much.
I blush easily.
I am mischievous. In a good way.
I love white wine.
I should drink more red.
I know how to party like a rockstar.
I don't do it often.
I am an excellent friend.
I appreciate politeness & good manners.
I like to walk when it's a reasonable option.
I hate driving during rush hour.
I can keep a secret.
I love coffee.
I dance around the house in my pyjamas daily.
I have great eyebrows.
I think personality and sense of humor are more important than looks, but physical chemistry is a must.
I am 34.
I don't act it, nor do I look it. Or so I'm told.
I'll gladly watch hockey & basketball. Baseball, not so much. Football can go either way.
I am strong.
I can hold my own in most things.
I am sweet, without being saccharine.
I stay up late.
I get up early.
I sing while I drive & drum on my steering wheel.
I don't care if you laugh at me for doing that.

Stand by...

Too many late nights have finally caught up with me. I woke up this morning with an inkling that I was coming down with a cold. 6 hours later I'm miserable. Add in some absolutely messed up people & my day is just lovely. *lol* The internet world is definitely filled with idiots - my wonderful friends being the exception. Right now, I feel like a boxer warming up for a match, bouncing around in the corner and raring to go. BRING IT! Seriously.

So, I gave my contact information to a guy last week, hoping that he'd actually use it. Has he? Nope. Argh. I am still hoping he does, but I'm not the kind of girl to sit around waiting for a call or email. If he doesn't, well, it's his loss. I'm beyond awesome. ;) No ego here...

Anyhow, this guy threw me for a loop yesterday, unexpectedly. I had some appointments down in the core yesterday, which always makes me happy! So, I'm traveling down 17th, a fabulous shopping & entertainment district, minding my own business. All of a sudden I look up & THERE he is! I had to do a double take, but yes, it was definitely him. Weird. Guess I know where he works now. ;) I was tempted to tap on the glass & ask if he was going to call me or not. Instead, I simply gave my head a shake and kept on going.

For those that don't "know" me, suburbia is my current home. In a lot of ways, I love it. Out of the general busyness of the city/traffic, but with a lot of services close at hand. Where I am is a fabulous lifestyle area. That said, I'm a city girl. I grew up in the inner city and in many ways I miss it. The vibrancy. Being able to walk pretty much anywhere. The arts, pubs, clubs, restaurants, shopping, parks, etc. are all great. Compared to most major cities, it's very clean. Many people are scared of being downtown after dark, but I never have been. Now & then I toy with the idea of moving back, or at least closer to the core. Now isn't the time to do so - but I still can dream, right?! I've been thinking about this a lot today.

In other news, our brilliant Premier has called an election, which will take place in just under a month. He's so on the ball, that his website is still under construction. Nice. If that's the kind of brain you need to be in politics these days, perhaps I should rethink my career path.

Alright. It's time to go scrounge in my cupboards for cold meds. I refuse to go to the store today, for fear of removing someone's head. Just one of those days. But at least I am smart enough to realize it. Also, I misplaced my open can of Coke Zero. If you see it, let me know.

ABC's

Do you have days where you're completely uninspired? Well, today is one of those days for me. I started on an entry earlier today, that I had hoped to have finished by this evening. My day got away from me, dealt with some crap and now am pretty meh.

So, I asked my lovely friend Laurie for an idea for a list for today, so here it is...

ABC's of me!

A - Angel. Haha! Seriously though, it's one half of a well known nickname of mine.
B - Ben Folds *swoon*
C - Cooking. I'm pretty damn good at it.
D - Devilish. Can you guess what that might go with? ;)
E - Energetic, among other things.
F - Flirtationships. So much fun!
G - Gentle. Really, I am. *lol*
H - Hockey. Could it be anything, but?!
I - Independent.
J - Jovial.
K - Kites. I love flying them!
L - Legs. They are exceptionally long.
M - Mischievous. You should find out why!
N - Naughty. And it comes right after mischievous. Bwahahaha.
O - Optimistic.
P - Punctual. Always! If I'm late, something is wrong.
Q - Quiet. I do enjoy a quiet evening, now & then.
R - Riesling. Please grab me a glass while you're up.
S - Slurpees. A guilty pleasure.
T - Text Messaging. Something that I enjoy far too much.
U - University. I've just gone back.
V - Vivacious. Get to know me & you'll find out quickly.
W - Wham! A lustful throwback to my young teen years.
X - Xanthous. Apparently means, yellow or red-haired. Works for me!
Y - Yarn. I'm teaching myself to knit.
Z - Zoo. Where I spend a lot of time.

Feel free to add your own!

Pass it on!

A day shouldn't be starting at 6am, when you don't go to sleep until 3am. Sometimes I can't help but question my own sanity, which begs the question, how on earth is it that my friends haven't had me committed yet?

That said, it was absolutely worth it & I would do it again in a second. (And likely will. ;)) I saw one of my best friends, for the first time in 10 years! Holy crap. I'm still very fuzzy on how we lost touch for that long, especially with living in the same city. I run into people I don't want to run into all the time, but rarely into people I would LOVE to see. It was wonderful to catch up and it was as if there weren't all those missing years. Awesome! Anyhow, thanks for dragging me out J & A. So much fun! Who would have thought this party girl could go out to a club, have fun, without getting completely ripped.

My wake-up call came far too early, in the form of "Mom, I have to peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" Oy vey! We had a good morning and eventually got out of the house and braved the grocery on Superbowl Sunday. Bad planning on my part. Somehow I almost doubled my weekly grocery bill. I cannot figure that out, but we will be having some great meals this week at least.

After dealing with that fiasco, Starbucks was calling my name. I swear I could hear rumblings of "Over here! You know you really need a Double Tall Skinny Mocha." I stopped for a split second & realized, why yes, I definitely do! So begins the turning point in my day...

Once in a while, you hear a random act of kindness (ROAK) story on the news. You know the ones that make you pause, then wonder why they never happen to you. *lol* I know my friend B makes a point of paying tolls for others at times, which is awesome! Just hearing her tell the story of it, has been heart-warming to read. Having no toll roads here, that option is out. As for other things, I'm always terrified of getting myself into a situation that I really can't afford, so I've never done anything...

Well, I ordered my much needed Starbucks drink. I pull up to the window & the girl informs me that the person in front of me has paid for my drink. WOW! I paused for a second and pondered what I should do. The vehicle behind me had several adults in it & being a single mom/university student, I was scared to ask how much their order was, but I did. Since their order was only $2 more than mine would have been, I happily passed it on. It felt incredible to do that & my spirit soared for simply shelling out $6 for someone else. (Note: Had their order had been huge, I still would have at least paid for some of their order.)

So, next time you're somewhere that you can offer up a ROAK, definitely do it! Not only will you have a chance at making someone else's day, you'll also make your own.

I feel fabulous!

I gave someone my email & number the other day. I'm really hoping he calls. So, here's hoping...

Want to be my Valentine?

Alright, the odds of my having an actual Valentine this year are about... NIL! And I'm that's ok. However, here's my wishlist anyhow. If you don't ask, you don't get, right?! ;) But hey, if someone wants to buy me something, I'm cool with that.

This was inspired by an email from my favorite brewery, who suggested a couple of 6 packs for Valentine's Day. Check to see if they made my list...

10. A little box of Callebaut chocolate. Enough to have a taste, but not enough to derail my efforts.

9. Love Actually dvd.

8. A foot & back massage. No wussing out after two minutes, complaining your hands hurt.

7. A case or two of Wraspberry Ale or Velvet Fog.

6. A bottle of Michael Kors

5. Picnic in the house - be creative!

4. Tiffany 1837 tag pendant - A girl should be allowed to ask for at least one pricey thing. ;)

3. A walk in the mountains.

2. A yummy house boy for the day!

1. A road trip & concert tickets to see my favorite performer.

Happy Friday! Complete with an early Valentine from your favorite dirty girl. ;)

Alright. I listen to music a lot. Probably more than I should, but I can think of worse things to be addicted to. Yesterday, a song popped up on my iPod that I hadn't heard in more than a year. I stopped listening to it, because it had become difficult to make through, without causing tears. Now, it brings a little smirk to my face and makes me laugh. It's a song that actually sings to me.

I know that a few of my readers & friends, have either walked my path already, or are (sadly/happily - whichever the case may be) following behind me. This is for you! I hope you enjoy it. I have such a girl crush on Kate Nash & she could easily be my lebanese lover. (Yes, the lebanese thing is a joke! Not meant to offend any Lebanese people - just a funny that came about within my wonderful "group.")

Foundations - Kate Nash